Scooter's Coffee

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"Scooters Coffee House
in Austin, TX"

Seriously, is there a better place to get coffee? I think not. I've been getting the same type of coffee for a while now, a vanilla latte with an extra shot. The first time I got one from Scooter's I couldn't believe how much better it was than any other place I've been. Wow. So, I go there just about every morning.

In doing so, I happen to keep seeing a girl there, well, she works there so... Anyway, she's cute and seems very... delicate? careful?... not sure what word I'm trying to think of, but she uses both hands to make sure nothing drops or spills when handing coffee to me. Her eyes are really nice too, blue I think... I'm bad with colors, I listed mine for years as brown when they're more like hazel. She's thoughtful too, she gave me a Premium Customer Card so I could get points or whatever each time I buy a coffee. And then...

Yesterday was Valentines Day. I'm fortunate enough to have her give me my coffee, so I wish her a happy Vday. She says "you too" or something and turns around as I drive off. I then go to take a drink, and there it is. "Happy -- a heart -- Valentine's Day" is written on the lid. Made me smile that maybe she wrote that just for me. But, what if they did that for everyone that day? Probably.

So, this morning I go and get my coffee, I'm going to ask her if they did that for everyone or if I was just special, but she didn't give me my coffee, the guy that works there handed it to me, and I wasn't going to ask him. So, maybe tomorrow. Maybe I'll just call there and ask. Of course if I was the only one, then they'll know I called... but that's fine, I just need to figure out her name and ask her out sometime. If it was to everyone, then oh well, guess I'll just go gradually... ask for her name, then ask her out later.

But, what if she says no? Or worse, she says yes and we break up later... will I still be able to get the coffee without worrying about spit or worse in it. Should I risk really good coffee in an effort to pick up a really good woman? Coffee... woman... I'm so confused! :) Well, I guess if she says no then I could still get coffee there with just a slight bit of embarrassment. And if we go out and have a bad break-up later, then there's always the Starbuck's down the road... ugh... but that's like going from broadband to dial-up (yes, Scooter's coffee is THAT good).

Well, I need to wait anyway. I may be going out with someone else anyway. Jada. I haven't met her yet though. But she seems like a very interesting person. Cute too. She just turned 29 last month so there's a 9 year difference.. not too bad. Would have gone out with her already but my dad broke his leg pretty badly and so I was out of town last weekend when she called wondering if I might be able to do lunch. Yeah... first off, we've been playing phone tag for like a month, then when I finally hear my phone ring and am able to answer it when she calls, I'm with my dad in his hospital room, and he's awake. So it's ringing and I really don't want to talk to her with my dad right there... but we've been playing phone tag for so long... I answer. I tell her what's going on and that I'll call her later this week (umm, today's Thursday, so I'll call her today). I hand up and my dad, who had been in and out of sleep thanks to his morphine every 10 minutes, asks me who's Jada, where did you meet her, etc. Ugh! Now if things don't work out between us, it'll be, what ever happened to Jada, how long did you see her, blah blah blah.

Jada, what a cool name. If we don't work out, then that's a name I may suggest for when/if I have a daughter. But then, if it ends as suddenly/weirdly/hurtfully as Sheri, forget it! Oh fug, now I'm thinking about Sheri.

I think I tried to take and moderate everything, even feelings, so much that maybe that's what made Sheri depressed or lose her feelings of love for me. I dunno... don't care, it's in the past and gone forever. Fuck it. One thing I learned is that kissing a big fake boob is like trying to kiss a fully inflated balloon. She sure was pretty though. Wish I had been in better shape while with her, and had gone ahead and done some things that I was holding back on... but I wasn't solely interested in sex with her and didn't want to give her the wrong impression. Bleh, I think I screwed up by just not being myself... what a dumbass I am.

Oh well, hopefully I'll learn from it and not screw up so badly with my next relationship, if I have one. Yeah, I'm seriously thinking maybe it just wasn't meant to be for me. I pray sometime and thank God for my happiness, my wife, and children (sorta like affirmations for things yet to come). Umm, I'm happy already I guess... just want to make sure it doesn't go away. :) Right, so for now, I see how it goes with Jada. If Jada doesn't work out, then maybe I'll see about going after the Scooter's woman. Kinda weird, I already know there's something about the Scooter's woman... wonder if I can tell over a lunch if there's something about Jada. Yeah, I can... it's either there or it isn't, physical attraction is pretty straight forward.

Oh geez, now that I think about it... Scooter's woman's face sorta looks like Sheri's. But maybe she really is nice, not fake nice like Sheri was. Fake nice, fake tits, fake last name at first, fake something else that I dismissed because I didn't want to lose her early on, even though I should have said no until everything was right. So, maybe this Scooter woman is the "real" version of what I thought Sheri was. Well, Sheri on antidepressants I guess, or whatever it was that made her happy, nice, thoughtful, and loving. It's funny, as lovely as she was on the outside, I thought she was even more lovely on the inside. I'm sure she really is, she just decided she didn't want me anymore I guess.

Thing is, I was waiting for something from Sheri, that never appeared... and I don't even know what it is, but I know when I see it. Well, I thought maybe I saw it when I last looked into her eyes after our last kiss... but that certainly wasn't it either, maybe I hoped it was something it wasn't. Anyway, I'm glad I can think about the stuff now without getting depressed.

I know I'll never know exactly why it ended until I meet Jesus, so it's hard to take and learn from the experience. If I knew the real reason why she fell out of love, then maybe I could focus on and improve it so I don't make the same mistake with Jada or possibly Scooter woman.

Anyway, I'm keeping the Happy Vday lid that came with my coffee yesterday... at least until I learn that they did it for everyone or if Jada and I become a thing. :)