Monica Maybe, and I'm Working Out Some

So I called Jada, nothing. She's only 29 and I guess talking to me is probably the last thing on her list of priorities. No offense taken. I'd wish her well but she never answers her phone.

So I go on the pursuit again, enter Monica. Monica doesn't want to talk on the phone at all. I can respect that. I gave her my number because she seems safe enough, a straight shooter, no BS'n around. She has a great smile from some of her older pictures, her newer ones show someone that's been pretty disappointed. I know the feeling, and I'd really like to put a smile back on her face, she's so pretty especially when smiling. Anyway, like me, she broke up in October, except her relationship had been a longer than mine, 3 yrs. I guess it had to be breaking down for a while for her to be back into the swing of things already. I suspect the guy may have cheated on her because she cut her hair off, the hair he had always told her not to cut because he liked it so much.

I like long hair too... what guy doesn't? But if a woman wants to experience having shorter hair, let her. She'll see in her guy's eyes that he doesn't like it for a long enough time that she'll probably grow it out again and keep it that way... unless she's in the process of leaving.

But anyway, if the guy did cheat on her, I know her pain all too well. Not from my last, though I suspect, but from prior ones. The last one which hurt so badly that I said "fuck it" to dating for a long time, didn't want that hell. Then something happened that lit a fire on my ass and now I'm actually trying. Thought it was dead in me, but apparently it wasn't.

I think way too far ahead. We've only emailed each other a handful of times and I'm already thinking about meeting her. What did you think I was going to say? :) Yeah, I went and bought some clothes this weekend, Granny helped me find stuff, it was a hoot. Anyway, I already know what I'm going to wear IF we ever meet. I almost emailed her saying something like, "So when are we going to meet" or "How long until you think we should meet." Decided not to write it though because that would be way to forward, too much too fast, me thinks, err, I think she would think that anyway.

Anyway, I think if we do meet we'll have fun. It's hard to know because I know I probably "sound" terrible on email. Can't really convey inflections or whatever so you have to write a little differently... well anyone reading this has probably written an email before and knows. Haha, like anyone reads this blog or would make it this far down anyway. Hmm... this blog is turning into an online journal for me. Oh well. /tangent. So it'll be quite a feat if we ever do meet. Can't wait, sure hope it happens because we have a lot in common and I wouldn't be surprised if we clicked. Never really know until ya meet though.

Unrelated, I upped my intensity on my Friday upper body workout, I've been taking creatine, glutamine, and whea protein, and my arms blasted a whole quarter inch more, still there too, been waiting for them to deflate to maybe an eighth higher than what it had been, but no, it's still a quarter inch more. Even Granny saw on Saturday, when I tried on a particular shirt, that I had gained a lot of size.

To recap, I think after Sheri I was probably down into the 150s. Normally, I was probably at 170, not really too sure because I didn't own a scale. After a few weeks of working out, and eating like a human should, I bought a scale and I weighed 160. I could tell I had gained a few pounds already, but I'm not sure how far below 160 I actually went, thank God. So anyway, I'm at 175 now, naked. Not bad after only 9 weeks of working out and eating, with about the last 4 or 5 weeks including protein drinks, vitamins, the last 3 weeks including mountain biking weekends, and the last week including creatine and glutamine.

So now my legs aren't looking as chicken related, and my arms are over 14" pumped, 13.75" cold. Yeah that's not huge, but it's an improvement for me and I've only just begun. I think maybe 15" might be good enough for me. Just wish I had some free weights... I really don't want to have to join a gym... but there is a World's opening up soon off Parmer... and a 24 fitness right by work is being built. Decisions, decisions. Maybe 16" arms will be my goal, just have to see how they as I go, I don't want to look like a freak, just muscular fit, like van damm, or however his damn name is spelled.

I guess after I get a little bigger, maybe when my arms are 14" cold, I'll take some pictures and post them on dating sites, unless I'm seeing someone already, like maybe Monica. :) I hope. But yeah, I'm totally serious about keeping fit now, I used to get away with not having to work out at all, but now I can't. If I don't I get way too out of shape and... can strain a muscle during sex of all times! Yeah, more embarrassing than painful, and it did hurt. Strained my butt muscle once, and my thigh muscle another time. Ugh. Never again, unless maybe it's some super duper really out of control doing some freaky stuff sex... though it probably wouldn't be unexpected if it's that wild. "Hey babe, let's have sex so hard that I strain a muscle" Hmm... may have to come up with a "workout" that might push the limits. Hmm, something to think/fantasize about hehe.