Her

What is it about her? If I don't hear from her for over a day, I start getting a sick feeling. I think about her almost constantly, she's even in my dreams! I want to be around her, I want to have great conversations, I want and I want and I want... yet I have no idea what she wants, yet she said I always know how to make her smile. She can't give herself to me. She is in a "situation." She says she knows what I'm going through. She says she wants me too. She said I'm the man of her dreams, and then she jokingly said it's a dream because it will never happen. She then said she loves me, in a jokingly serious way.


What is it about her? It's not her very large boobs, even though I am a boob-guy. It's not her very nice butt, though I really do like it too. It's not her eyes, though I could stare into them forever. It's not her hair, though I'd love to sink my fingers through it every day. It's not physical at all...

It's how happy she becomes when I give her a gift, she fusses over it, telling me how she loves it and how wonderful it is. It's how she cries on my shoulder when something has made her very upset. It's the feelings that are shared when we've embraced each other. It's our common beliefs. It's our compensating differences. It's love isn't it? But love comes from God. So why do I love someone in a "situation?" Has God sent me to hell?